Hapless By Leo 35

Chapter thirty five:

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Now life was demanding more from her than she could give. Life demanded that Ben was the new Taylor of her life. Just the thought of it was making her crazy.

''Life was with Taylor but now that he is gone how could I?

Ben has always been good to me but he loved me all this time? 

I mean yes I love him too but that was completely platonic.

This love is another love. 

I have had mine but can't I do something about it.

The poor soul has suffered so much because of me,

everyone suffered because of me. What is to become of me?

 She soon fell asleep in war of her mind and heart.

The next day she woke up and dressed herself trying to make her wrecked self look good and found Ben in her room.
''I ordered breakfast but I'll dine outside what about you? Do you want it here or with___''
''No I'll come with you just wait let me call mom and _____''
Ben didn't let her finish, ''No need I called her and don't worry about Liz she's fine.'' 

''Why do you take care of all the things that are mine responsibility and have nothing to do with me why? There's one thing more that I will never understand and that is how do you know what I want and what worries me? That too exactly at the correct moment.'' she said to herself and remained silent. One thing was sure, either she was beginning to love him or either he was the reason she was going crazy more and more with each day.

The fountain's face which was a cute cupid flowed water from it's mouth and another cupid was hugging it. It was situated in a huge roundabout shape and the people dined around it. This was the most famous spot for breakfast. It was 8 and too busy. Amidst the throng Ben and Tina found themselves a table and ordered their breakfast. The wind was filled with the odor of eggs, coffee and bacon. The sky was sunny and totally clear. The atmosphere had a tune of it's own, a song of birds, people's chat and footsteps.
''I really don't understand what was the point of us coming here?''
Tina acted perfectly as if she didn't knew.
Ben looked at her in askance and she looked away.
''Okay I know but I can't promise anything, you think I don't try? I try and try hard even though no one can understand me. No one can be at my place and feel the same as I do. The war that I wage with my heart. Everyday. All the time but..'' she was astonished by the clanks of plates that were being served to them.
''You don't have to wage any war with your heart. All you have to do is listen to your heart. That's what we all want and there is one thing that we all know and this is why we are so determined in pushing you away from it, it's your loss of interest in life and admiration to die. If you continue to live like this than we'll lose you and this is something that I will never let happen you understand even if I have to do anything to save you from it.''
his eyes were tearful when he said that and they were filled with love. God dammit why was I that much blind the whole time? Couldn't I see the storm of love in his eyes before? That much love and all for me? How am I going to repay that much when I have nothing?
Tina instead of answering him drowned in her own questions.
After breakfast they decided to brisk walk in the city.
They had walked too much and came into the market. Where Ben and Tina began shopping although they had no interest in it.
He bought a sapphire chain for her and she bought his favorite perfume.
They fought when it was time to pay,
''I'll pay for my things and that's final or we can fight all day for this.'' Tina said and sat on one of the stools when no outcome came. Ben gave in and they both paid separately for their stuff.
For a moment the spark of their previous life reemerged and then soon faded too.
On the other lane creepy stalls of fortune teller's were glittering and making success. Throngs were coming in and going out of the colorful stalls.
''I want to go there.'' Tina said stupidly.
''That is nonsense why are you doing silly things when you have been so wise all your life?'' Ben pushed her towards him with her elbow.
''Aren't we here for fun and to be silly than let's be and you are coming  with me.''
''No I'm not.'' he could only say but he had to come in.
The room which resembled like a canopy was all red and filled with the essence of incense burning. Red lights and little blue light were hanging on the wall.
Colored blinds were hanging on the entrance of one room from where a petite woman appeared who had heavy makeup on her face and had covered her hair in a silk printed scarf.
''Next.'' she shouted and a man came out of the room probably he had had his session. The woman spotted Tina and came directly to her,
''You come in and leave your husband outside I don't take matrimonial sessions.'' she turned to go back to her room but Tina explained to her,
''He is not my husband but my friend.''
''Ah, friend what ever leave him and come alone or send him and you stay. One person at a time.''
''Listen Tina let's get out of here I have some bad feeling about this place.''
''You stay right here and I'll be back shortly.'' she followed the strange woman into her equally bizarre room.
Inside the room there was no light but a glowing ball and the room was filled with smoke and it was just like she had seen in movies although in the movies they always were unrealistic, funny and spooky.
''What is it that you want to know?'' she sat on the chair next to the glowing ball.
''I just want to overcome my fears.'' she looked directly in the woman's eyes.
''Everyone wants that honey but I don't sell courage I only give the slightest hint of the possibility of tomorrow which might be true or might not be who knows but you people are so stupid that still you all come here to buy courage.'' she snorted.

Then she yelled in colloquial french and a dwarf appeared bringing her lemonade.

''You want some but it'll cost you.'' she said sipping the lemonade although it was anything but a lemonade. Tina ignored her question, 

''Thank you for being honest I mustn't trouble you then and be on my way there are many fools waiting to come inside.''
''I like it.'' her dark eyes glowed suddenly and the laughter was gone.
''I like your courage but only if you knew how to handle it, then you wouldn't be here today. The boy loves you and you love him too just admit it and do what you feel like doing and don't waste your time and life , for life is short. It will be gone before you realize your mistakes. Silly mistakes.'' she got up and came closer to Tina.
''This was no fortune telling this was only a advise.'' she said when Tina had traces of fear over her face which soon disappeared as she came out of the room.
''What happened?'' Ben asked her.
''Nothing let's go back to the hotel I'm tired.''
''What happened Tins? you look like as if you've seen a ghost.''
''Nothing I'm tired that's all.'' ''Ghosts can't be worse than me.'' she said after they got out of the shop.

The truth was she wasn't tired she was scared because of what the gypsy woman said. It was as if she had been a psychologist.
She lay down for a while but she couldn't get the things out of her mind.
She got up and went to Ben.
His room wasn't locked as usual and she came in directly as she used to do.
He was on the phone with someone but he didn't bother to look around least bit.
Tina was still standing she didn't move. After finishing his conversation he looked at her, ''I'll call you back and arrange two tickets as earliest as possible.'' he sighed and sat on the sofa. He didn't talk to Tina. She came and sat next to him.
''We are not going back not that early.'' she said taking his phone from his hand.
''What is the point of all this? I can't waste many days here I have to get back to work.'' Ben was upset she could sense it easily.
''I also have work to do but we are not leaving. Until the 5 days which we decided to spent together.'' she came closer to him. That was close enough for him to feel her breath over his face. A state of magic came over him and he lost his control. He came closer and kissed her. She didn't resist and kissed him back. His tongue moving in her mouth and she reacted back. There passion was mixed with a state of ecstasy. Her heart had won it's battle with her mind. In the sheets they both lay carelessly with Ben playing with her locks and she was looking directly at him she and him had never hidden anything from each other this why they were true with each other. Being cared in her expert hands she felt herself in another dimension. She was relieved. His emotion of love that flowed in her and made her a part of him. Body and soul. Ben who was a master of art in handling and wooing women was nervous with Tina himself. He was with the woman he had loved. The one and only. Yet his love was everlasting. ''I'll never forgive myself for doing that to you.'' she said kissing him again and a silent moaned escaped from her lips. ''What? you didn't do anything.'' he curled her in a hug and she lay over his bare chest. Her tear slid down on his chest.
''Why are you crying Tins?'' Ben looked at her and wiped her tear of her face.
''I should have been there for you when you needed me the most yet I left you alone I'll never forgive myself for that.'' she hugged him tightly and he was hysterical. He had been there and he knew what it felt like and the truth was that he was alone.
''It doesn't matter to me as long as you are in front of my eyes everything's too good for me.'' he moved his fingers in her hair.
They lay in that motion for how long they didn't know but what ever happened truly did relieved them both from their suffering.

They both were perfect for each other. 

Ben's hands were shaking but Tina got hold of them.

He was experienced in this field and Tina had given him hold of herself. 

It was evening and Tina was still sleeping and Ben was watching her sleep. When she opened her eyes she saw him looking at her, ''What time is it day or night?'' she got up and smiled at him.
''You are even unaware of night and day?'' he smiled back at her.
''It's all your doing. You are such a womanizer now I know what affect you had on all of them.'' she kissed him again and brought him closer to her.
'' Get dressed I have a great arrangement for you tonight.''
'' Okay, thank you Ben for being my friend, if it weren't for you I don't know what would have became of me. After long time I slept like that. Beneath the shield of your arms and love. But I still want more of you. Surprises cam come later we both are the biggest surprise.'' she took hold of his arms.
''Don't make me hysterical again.'' he said jumping on the bed.

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